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Visual novel log!

03/30/2025

Kusarihime ~euthanasia~

Sadly a bunch of the JP visual novels I downloaded from the Internet Archive files corrupted (I probably fucked up something in the extraction process) BUT another one of my biggest dream VNs wasn't!



I love the art style so much, it's so incredibly original, it's kinda like the og Higurashi art style in the sense it has a lot of aspects of classic anime moe art with a lot of originality in it.
It also looks like the machine translator has a lot of an easier time translating it, probably because Suisenka is so poetic with it's writing while Kusarihime seems a lot more straight forward.
Just uh, minus the fact that it likes to translate our protagonist's name "Itsuki" as "Goki" for some reason.

Wonderful Everyday: Down The Rabbit-Hole

Looking-glass Insects spoilers + typical warnings, this VN touches every uncomfortable subject matter under the sun, be warned OH MY FUCKING GOD LET'S FUCKING GO KIMIKA YOU CRAZY FUCK

She knew she was bouta get her shit kicked in so she brought not only a stab-proof vest but a FUCKING STUN GUN

"I'm so desperate... I might just kill you." GO OFF QUEEN GET THAT BITCH KILL KILL KILL KILL

BRO WHY DOES THE MUSIC THAT PLAY WHEN MEGU IS TELLING ON KIMIKA GO SO HARD THE FUUUUCK

interpreting Kimika being able to worm her way out of literally having a stun gun on her person is that masking her autism she's genuinely gotten THAT good at bullshitting.

Zakuro with the pepper spray, the most girly-pop weapon. (I have a pink pepper spray lol)

"What are you hiding, Tachibana..." AUTISM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



This line goes hard.

03/28/2025

Suisenka

SPOILERS + SEXUAL CONTENT CW GOD I love the scene where Koichi listens in on the conversation between Mamoru and Kanae, Koichi feeling intense anger and jealousy but being completely unable to understand why. He himself expresses confusion on why he feels heartbroken instead of joy at this sweet interaction.

I wonder what Emi's history in this mansion is, she comes off as if she's a therapist of some sort.

I'm still pretty early in but it seems like a majority of the time we actually see what Koichi is saying is when he's talking to Emi.



Oh I fucking love this scene, Koichi comes to fucking close to awakening to the fact that Mamoru and his connection goes deeper than just him being the heroine to his hero, just for Mamoru to reassure him that he is the protagonist of Suisenka and does not need to think further, along side Mikado resetting the scene back to the eroge scene that got cut off earlier.

03/26/2025

Suisenka

God I've been reading so much Subahibi I forgot that eroge doesn't make me feel uncomfortable.

But I love how this visual novel is staged so much, the ui is very very pretty and strange, the cheering like there's a crowd, the need to redo scenes over and over again to make them perfect, I love it.



This is peak otokonoko design ngl, shout out to Mamoru he is adorable.

I'm glad I know just enough basic Japanese grammer to be able to sus out what the rough google translate is supposed to say based on context and such.



(starts pointing at the screen aggresively) IT'S THEM!!! EMI!!!!!! HI EMI!!!! OMG HIIIII

SPOILERS holy FUCK the music that plays when Sayo stops Mamoru and Koichi from leaving the mansion is so fucking good, I hope this VN gets enough of a cult following for all of the BGM to get uploaded to YouTube.

I've been adoring the tiny sprinkles of intrigue, you find yourself in a seemingly normal anime silly scene or eroge scene but constantly, something is off. Why does Koichi seem to insist that the outside world is dangerous? Why are Mamoru and Koichi's dialogs so ominous for playing the roles of protagonist and main lady? I mean, I know why, but I won't say.

Even though he is one of the people who insisted that leaving the mansion is dangerous, he himself is confused on why he feels tht way, especially with Sayo enforcing it.

03/24/2025

Suisenka

Oh my god I have it, I finally have it, my dream visual novel.

I didn't get far since this is an eroge and I don't want my boyfriend to get titty jumpscared, but I am, so fucking excited to continue this.

Slightly sucks I have to go the machine translation route but I already know the rough outline of the plot so any shitty translation should be covered by that.

03/22/2025

STEINS;GATE

It feels like an actual crime it took me until now to start this VN. This is like in the top greats, I hope it lives up to the hype, I've always adored the art style, it's so pretty.

I've known her for 1 minute and I already know Mayuri is gonna be my favorite

And my god what a fucking prologue, I am definitely invested.

03/21/2025

The Silver Case

I know almost nothing about this VN, I saw a screenshot of it at some point, thought it looked awesome, found out it was ported to steam, and here we are, I am so excited.

03/17/2025

Wonderful Everyday: Down The Rabbit-Hole


Looking-glass Insects spoilers + typical warnings, this VN touches every uncomfortable subject matter under the sun, be warned OH THANK GOD THEY GOT AWAY

Zakuro and Kimika my beloved...

"thank you... for saving me..." AWWWWWW

"every person is pathetic" she is spitting

I love the dorky conversations between Zakuro and Yuki(Takuji) waxing poetically.

Yuki feeling at her best when as high as possible while Takuji feels at his best when as deep as possible, interesting.

Aw damn the flower bullying tactic, I always found that super fucked up, especially how common it is in Japan.

03/17/2025

Wonderful Everyday: Down The Rabbit-Hole

Looking-glass Insects spoilers + typical warnings, this VN touches every uncomfortable subject matter under the sun, be warned Y'know, even though Kimika saying she's autistic was just an odd localization, she unironically has a lot of symptoms, I wonder if that was why.

Seeing Megu and Satoko interacting with Zakuro gives me so much fucking dread, god, also pain, both Zakuro and Kimika kind of just, trying to go-along with anything they do in a desperate attempt to avoid getting harmed is too real.

I am witnessing an allistic girl with social anxiety and a depressed autistic girl both masking in different ways, why is this eroge with multiple rape scenes doing a better job at this than most mainstream media.

I LOVE SO MUCH HOW ZAKURO VIEWS TAKUJI AS ~cool and mysterious~ WHEN HE'S JUST A MENTALLY ILL DWEEB WITH UNDIAGNOSED DID AND PROBABLY MORE and least if I'm understanding everything right so far.

OH MY GOD CUTE SOFT TAKUJI it's been so long....

He doesn't remember her, Takuji is definitely fronting rn, again, if I'm reading this right.

WAIT WHAT THE 'DEMON' THAT LOOKS LIKE TAKUJI YUKI????

AND SHE DOESN'T KNOW WHO YUUKI IS I guess we already knew that one.

Takuji whining with his babyface sprite is so fucking funny, he really is pathetic.

I FORGOT THAT TAKUJI SAYS "sheeple" HE IS A FUCKING CONSPIRACY THEORIST ASS

HAHAHA THE SECRET SCENE IS SO MUCH FUNNIER FROM ZAKURO'S POV



EEEEEEEEEEEE SHE LOOKS SO CUTE

Considering Takuji is reading a book, I think it's safe to say Yuki is fronting, this dialog is extremely familiar too. Hearing Takuji's VA speak in Yuki's cadence is so cool, shows the talent of a VA.

I wonder if weird and awkward Takuji and fucked up and evil Takuji are deperate alters, maybe a weird blurry line between being separate and not, I've heard that happening with DID systems before.

The lighting does make it look like their hair is dark brown, but the fact that it's almost black makes me wonder if it's actually Yuuki, but again, the dialog is extremely familiar.

AGAIN THE THING ABOUT HAVING NO SISTER
Is Yuuki the only one that remembers her?



Yeah that, that sprite really just confirms it huh

For reference:



That is just Yuki's typical sprite pose, I'm gonna she/her this bitch now

wait
WAIT
OH MY GOD I WAS RIGHT

TSUKASA IS HASAKI AND KAGAMI IS JUST THE DOLL, HOLY FUCK, I WAS RIGHT

Honestly I adore how this VN delivers it's twists so, simply, no big noises or reveals, just casually fed to you like "oh yeah by the way, Takuji, Yuki, and Yuuki all live in the same mind and the twins are a weird delusional version of Hasaki and her doll"

Love Kimika for somehow remembering the exact dates of Satoko's pay rate AND her monthly allowance, how autism of her.
She looks like the tbh creature in her neutral sprite.

Random thought but I wonder if the twins are Lucky Star references because of how much anime Takuji has watched, probably pulling from their subconcious, it's clear that at least Yuki and Takuji aren't aware of them being in a DID system so maybe Yuki subconsiously blocks out Hasaki since it'd be controdictory to what she knows she is, and somehow that ends with her having a lesbian love story with her sister's doll, normal.

But then why can Takuji see them? Since others can't maybe when Takuji is up front it's a pure hallucination.

LOL TAKUJI'S WEIRD RAMBLINGS ON THE WALL

OH MY GOD WAIT WAIIIIIIT THIS SINGLE HANDEDLY ANSWERS WHY YUKI HAD ZAKURO'S PHONE AFTER SHE DIES HOLY SHIIIIIIT THIS VISUAL NOVEL IS PEAK THIS MAKES UP FOR HOW UNCOMFORTABLE THE PREVIOUS CHAPTER WAS

I love that this reveals that Yuki's forgetfulness is less apathy and more psychological, which is cool as fuck.

Zakuro viewing herself so lowly hurts so much man, you are gorgeous!!! you are so smart!!!!!!!!

Very fascinating yuri, yuri? yuri that isn't known to be yuri because one is part of a DID system where the body is male? transgender yuri? yeah

Also, just found out that Yuuki does have a voice actor in some Subahibi releases, wish that included this one.

THE AMUSEMENT PARK!!!! THE CUTE ASS AMUSEMENT PARK!!!!!!! I'm so happy to see this scene again.

AAAA SHE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND WHY IT'S WEIRD FOR THEM TO BE WALKING TOGETHERRRR I wonder if she's unaware that she's in a traditionally considered male body.

"It seems like only another woman could understand women this well" THAT'S BECAUSE SHE IIIIIIIIIS

OH MY GOD WE'RE GONNA SEE THE PIANO SCENE AGAIN please please please I love that scene so much.

ANOTHER F SLUR JUMPSCARE HI??

Seeing this from Zakuro's POV really does solidify why Takuji gave so much of a shit about Zakuro, even if it's not him talking to her. Just with him it was more of a one sides opsession, wow, this makes me wanna ask anyone in a system if they've other been in a love triangle between them, another member of the system, and another person.

I know Zakuro mentioned a bookshelf, but I wonder if she said that in the earlier chapter of this scene.

A RUMOR ABOUT HIM BEATING UP A BUNCH OF PEOPLE HUH??? God looking at that scene in retrospect it seems almost like the exact moment the split happened, when Yuuki was formed.

WAIT Wait, Kimika called herself a yandere, did, DID SHE TRY TO KILL TAKUJI BECAUSE ZAKURO LOVED THEM?? Maybe they thought they caused her death??

I honestly think Kimika might be in competition for my favorite character in this VN, she's so fucking weird, but she's so kind. She calls Zakuro an idiot for talking to her because it just makes both of them targets. When they would get bullied she tried to make herself a target more than Zakuro.

"Zakuro isn't dumb, she's just too kind."

I dooooon't like how zoomed in this CG is

Oh

oh no

they're about to get blackmailed into something bad aren't they

Yeah this, this is a scene I'm gonna have to watch, later

But it looks like they're about to force them into basically recording porn in public

03/11/2025

Echo

I'm gonna switch gears and save Jenna's route for later since basically everywhere says that it's better to do Leo and Carl's early, thankfully TJ's route is recommended kinda in the middle which, makes sense after doing it, but I'm gonna do Leo's because I'm hella curious

spoilers (Leo route) cw for mature themes, sexual content specifically Leo is definitely one of the ones I'm most intrigued by, in the other routes so far he's pretty consistently not a very good person. It feels like he's in constant denial about a lot of things maybe.

No offense but man Chase is so fucking easy, calling it now that Chase and Leo are gonna become fuck buddies with no clear relationship status.

I do like seeing Leo and Jenna's rivalry being a bit more healthy though. Makes me sad to see TJ so uncomfortable.

Oh shit Leo remembered the CD this time!

Leo is really fucking obsessed with him damn, I'm concerned for Chase.

OH SHIT LEO SAW A HALLUCINATION OF CHASE THE PREVIOUS WEEK THAT'S ANOTHER ONE

03/10/2025

Echo

spoilers (TJ route) cw for mature themes To give context since I kinda just stopped logging at some point bc I got THAT invested, where I'm currently in TJ's route they've discovered one of Sydney's old scavenger hunts, Chase, TJ, and the others are now currently doing it to find closure in Sydney's death, however the level of things that are intact is now starting to freak Chase out along side the fact that the hints keep implying that Chase is hiding something from the rest of the group. Chase suspects that Flynn is the one making it since he's been causing shit this whole trip.

Currently at the beach scene, I currently suspect that it's either genuinely done by childhood Sydney, or that Chase has been doing it the entire time without realizing, since he keeps having moments of intense fatigue and intensely vivid nightmares, but the scene beforehand seems to point away from it since he seems to just be fucking with the last one.

Anyways wow Chase is kind of a piece of shit, I kinda had that assumption going in since all of these characters seem like they have major demons, but god he feels like a particular asshole right now. It's clear as day that he's beginning to view TJ as "his", I mean he said so himself when he felt jealousy towards Julian, he's just not restraining it anymore.

Oh, oh fuck, oh fuck TJ's gone apeshit. Chase encouraging it, what the fuck.

CHASE YOU MANIPULATIVE FUCK YOU ARE SO AWFUL

We don't even know what Chase wrote, I can only assume he wrote something about accusing TJ of killing Sydney.

THE SCENE WITH CHASE AND FLYNN god Flynn is right what HAS happened to him?

The background in Familyflex is liminal as fuck I love it.

"I realize then what a fucking stick-in-the-mud Julian is." TJ ISN'T INTO YOU CHASE

"You can lean against me, Teej." HE ISN'T INTO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

Janice scares me ngl, the more we interact with her the more I suspect something is up with her, outside of drugs. I think the lack of sprite for her whenever she seems to be having an episode of some kind makes it more offputting.

I hate (positive) how progressively more aggresive Chase's internal dialog is getting, wasn't this the guy who was complaining about Leo being weirdly obsessive? We love a hypocritical protagonist.

DUUUUUUDE NOOOOOO HE FUCKING KISSED HIM!!! HE'S NOT INTO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

WHERE THE FUCK DID TJ GO???????

Oh this is when the crazy shit starts, I love not being able to tell what's happening and what's not (not sarcasm)

Ok, I think either Chase killed Sydney, or Chase IS Sydney. I still have several more routes so who knows if I'll get the answers here.

I love how cutesy the art style becomes whenever there's a flashback, so innocent.

OK TJ IS ALIVE GOOD get the fuck away from Chase PLEASE

Oh shit Flynn probably has TJ held hostage, maybe

Drawing shows Chase killing Sydney, but TJ claims to have killed him by accident, I can't tell if TJ is being truthful or if he's trying to save Chase's ass because he's scared.

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN PEOPLE IN THE FUTURE ARE SEEING FLYNN'S GHOST!? GHOSTS ARE REAL!??!?!?!?!??!?!

AAAAAND THAT'S THE FUCKING END OF TJ'S ROUTE ok, uh, I have no fucking clue who to do next. I'm probably gonna go with Jenna next, then Carl, then Flynn, and probably save Leo for last. And knowing how long this VN is there's probably a secret one for getting all the routes.

spoilers (Jenna's route) cw for mature themes Reading "I feel like this is just a little bit unfair to Flynn" right after doing TJ's route is very fucking funny.

Super interesting that Jenna clarifies that otter's need for water is psychological rather than physical, god I love animal people lore.

So Jenna had a super shitty childhood, so shitty that one of her brothers killed himself and she's gone completely no-contact with her family, interesting.

"It's not gross. It's just what your body does to survive." is a, weirdly sweet quote.

Jenna would see a distorted hallucination of Chase huh...? Noted...

I am so excited when I get to Leo's route, I have the feeling it's gonna have some important shit in it.

Jenna and TJ's dynamic is so fucking fun, TJ's innocense with Jenna's straightforward attitude.

JENNA READS MANGA LET'S FUCKING GOOOOO

Oh shit Leo's totally gonna be important in this route isn't he? Maybe I should've done his first, oh well.

I haven't been talking about the nightmares much since most of them are straight forward, but a phonecall from someone named Jared, I wonder if that name will be important.

It's so nice to be back to the grounded and realistic dialog, can't wait for everything to go wrong.

Speaking of going wrong, there's Leo getting harshly rejected by Chase after being wayyyy too sexually pushy and then getting his ego smashed in even harder when Jenna beats him at the claw game he was just doing.



Oh! What a lovely photo on Carl's phone!

Fucking love the visual gag of Chase being named "Some gay otter idk" and his last text was "have you changed my name yet"

OHHH THE JARED IN QUESTION WAS A FAKE GUY FOR THE CHEATING PRANK I see I see

Duke claiming that he's been seeing Chase sneaking into peoples' houses, though this could easily be because of good ol' meth, the fact that we know from TJ's route that ghosts are some kinda thing... Maybe it's Sydney?

Oh my god the interaction between Jenna and Chase was so fucking cute actually, such a breath of fresh air after Chase, well, chasing TJ.

I'm also glad to see Flynn being hella chill, not that he was entiiirely in the wrong during TJ's route he was still a major asshole.

With the conversation between Chase and Micha, I suspect that Echo itself is causing a lot of this fuckery, I was already kinda sensing some potential Higurashi inspo with the summer stuff and spreading psychosis.

The fact that EVERYONE is having nightmares makes me think that too.

03/08/2025

Echo

The music is so pretty in this.

The backgrounds and setting give me a fuck ton of nostalgia too, it completely went over my head originally but Echo takes place in Echo, Utah, somewhere I've been, which is super fucking cool to see.

Actually, I was gonna hide it for the sake of anonymity but I think it's interesting enough context and it's such a big location that it doesn't matter, I grew up in Utah! So the location of this VN is extremely nostalgic for me, also explains why TJ is such a devout Jesus fan.

This is also the first visual novel in awhile I've been physically unable to stop reading, it's that good. So much that my log isn't probably gonna be that detailed, complete tunnel vision.

spoilers (TJ route) cw for mature themes I think I'm gonna try maxing out on interacting with TJ, he's probably the character I'm the most intrgued by so far.

I swear to god (sorry TJ) everytime I see a location I vaguely recognize I feel like I've gotten flashbanged.

Leo's a cutie, I've got a feeling that he's still into Chase, with how much he interacts with him and seems to be constantly trying to impress him.

Jenna's so fucking cool I love her.

Oh shit I get to pick whether or not Chase refers to himself as gay or bi, I assume bi gets me closer to Jenna, probably just gonna pick the gay label, makes me intrigued on Chase's identity tho.

Considering that Leo called other people in their group "gringos" and the fact that wolves have a strong focus on family in their culture, Leo seems to be Mexican-coded, or at least hispanic-coded, which is cool as fuck.

God, the talk between Chase and Leo hurts, I've been both of them. And then immediate whiplash by them getting called the f slur by random passerby lmao.



Oh my god I wished I knew the button to hide the UI because this art is BEAUTIFUL, all of the art in general has looked breathtaking so far but this CG is super fucking nice.

Again I fucking adore the character details based on what animal everyone is, love the creativity that's born from furry characters so much.

Fuuuuck TJ dissociating everytime there's arguments is too fucking relatable. I'm gonna talk to TJ.

FUUUUUCK I SHOULD PROBABLY LEAVE HIM BE BUT IDKKKKKKKK, I'm gonna stay with him but not say anything.

TJ's compulsion to redirect and be avoidant is too fucking real man, he's easily my favorite so far.

Oh my fucking god translating the Jesus race debate to the "Jesus species debate" is very fucking funny but also very cool to see acknowledgement of that.

TJ feels like several people I knew back in Utah, deeply devout but deeply pained.

I fucking love Chase's flirting with TJ, dude's definitely an otter, at least, I vaguely remember otters being sexually active.

OH SHIT SYDNEY IS AN OTTER, Sydney being an otter perfectly explains why TJ knows an almost obsessive amount about otter anatomy, his guilt from witnessing Sydney's death.

Every character's dialog is written in a way that my brain can vividly generate exactly how they sound in my head, I know how every single one of them sound by their dialog.

Ok so TJ IS specifically Christian, and Sydney's family is Mormon.

Wonderful Everyday: Down The Rabbit-Hole

I should probably label these by the chapter titles rather than numbering them, sicne chapter 1 is more like chapter 0, just to avoid confusion.

It's My Own Invention spoilers + tw explicit sexual content and gore, I should just put this on every Subahibi log ngl THE FUCKING WHIPLASH OF AN EROGE SCENE TO ZAKURO CORPSE JUMPSCARE WITH A DISTORTED VERSION OF AYANA'S THEME MAKING MY BRAIN EXPLODE I JUST OPENED THE VN

WHAT'S GOING ON????????? We have to be nearing the end of this chapter

KIMIKA!!!!!!!!!!!!!



SHE SAID THE THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS TRANSLATION IS SO FUCKING WEIRD I LOVE IT!!!!
DIVERSITY WIN, THE STRANGE AND OFFPUTTING GIRL WITH MURDEROUS TENDANCIES IS AUTISTIC!!!! (it's just a very odd localization)

AYANA EROGE SCENE???? This isn't real, this is like all the way back when he hallucinated it with Zakuro, that implies that Ayana is on some level a real entity, so, so what the fuck is she. And why the fuck is an eroge scene adding to that.

I can see why this is the most hated chapter tho, there's way too mucn unneccessary eroge content that quite literally comes out of nowhere, I just wanna get this over with.

I KNEW IT, this means that Ayana can see Takiju's hallucinations, what a way to show that information.

YUUKI!! he's so pretty, wished he was voiced, oh what the fuck this music is really good, OH WAIT THIS IS THE REALLY GOOD SONG THAT PLAYED EARLIER, thank god it's in a scene that isn't disgusting

I think the blocked out name might be Takuji's sister the more I think about it, she hasn't been mentioned a single time despite Takuji being the lead. I'm also extremely fucking curious to know what Yuki has to do with all of this.

THE TWINS!?

wait

wait

Yuuki is the one who refers to himself as a bad brother

Takuji is reacting like he's been stabbed

ohhh god it's time to witness what was done to Kagami... I've got a pretty good idea of what's about to happen and I do not like it.

THEY'RE CONFUSED BY THE ORDER, BECAUSE KAGAMI IS A DOLL, THAT'S WHAT WE LEARNED LAST TIME

"all you've done is get me dirty... if you stick me in the washer, I'll be clean again in no time..." SO SHE IS THE DOLL, SO, WHY, WHY DO TAKUJI, YUKI, AND YUUKI SHE HER AS A PERSON, AND THEN WHAT THE FUCK IS TSUKASA

Wait waitwaitwait Kimika just acknowledged Tsukasa's existance, so is Tsukasa real?

ngl it feels like Kimika doesn't believe anything Takuji says, moreso she just wants an excuse to commit complete and total self destruction.

Aaaand that's the end, haha, what the fuck.

Ok what I was gonna say before my train of thought got cut off, I think Takuji and Yuuki are the same person, or at least live in the same body, and potentially Yuki as well but I'm not entirely sure yet.

Looking-glass Insects spoilers OH SHIT ARE WE GONNA BE READING FROM ZAKURO'S POV!?

Oh, oh my god, my jaw just dropped.



Takuji is Yuki

Takuji is Yuuki

Yuuki is Yuki

I was wondering why so many people with DID enjoyed this VN so much, I assumed it was a cooincidence, no, Takuji has a system, or at least that's what it feels like this is implying, especially with Takuji constantly skipping class.

I also was gonna make a half joking theory that Takuji is a trans woman bc he's the only guy who's voice acted and only the girls are voiced, but that might carry more weight than I originally thought.

Ohh Zakuro how I've missed you, god she's so cute looking

03/05/2025

Walk in the Sun

Another VN I started while waiting to clock into work, I also didn't get very far in but the tiny biut I've seen has been really interesting. I've been in a weird "criticism of religious extremism" phase and this'll definitely hit my fix.

03/04/2025

CHAOS;HEAD NOAH

Chapter 2 spoilers + adult themes

Nothing goes quite together like a denpa-aligned VN and an extremely unlikable male protagonist, Takumi is such a gooner man all he did was see a cute looking nurse and immediately went "wow it's like one of my hentai games."

At least he canonically has a comfort character, I too imagine (MAJOR FFXIV: SHADOWBRINGERS CHARACTER WHO IS A WALKING SPOILER) telling me I did a good job when I actually leave my apartment.

Oh shit that is an ACTUAL list of things I can select for this medical record, this should be fun, I'm reading this with no guide so I'm curious to know what this will effect. I'm gonna answer it honestly.

Finally back to Takumi's gamer den, he's remembered a suited man from his childhood that would always stand ominously during his doctor visits.

Uh oh Grimm's into eroguro. I misread "this guy's a goner" as "this guy's a gooner" and yeah ig that's true too.

Grimm encouraging Takumi to look at gore images, how 2000s internet of him lmao

WAIT I JUST REALIZED, IS THE FICITONAL VERSION OF GOOGLE, "Deluoode" MEANT TO SOUND LIKE "delusion"!? GOD I LOVE YOU DENPA ALIGNED VNS AND YOUR LACK OF SUBTLETY I LOVE YOUUUU

Light speculation since this game is clearly gonna be pretty dark, maybe the infant that was shoved into the corpse of a man (normal sentance) was the baby of the girl committing the murders, assuming it's just her at least.

03/02/2025

Echo

This VN has been in my backlog for FOREVER, found out it has an android port so I've began reading it while I'm waiting to clock into work, only about 30 minutes in but I ADORE how the dialog feels, these very much feel like real people, I also love that the anthro characters feel like a deliberate thing rather than just a stylistic thing (not that I would've minded)

02/20/2025

Wonderful Everyday: Down The Rabbit-Hole

before continuing with this section, just a little PSA, never feel pressured to engage with art that displays disgusting subject matter fully in front of you, and though I don't believe the ones in Subahibi are in completely bad taste (more in line with the sexual assault scenes from A Clockwork Orange) it'd be lying if I said that Subahibi is this perfect showcase of how to portray sexual assault, basically forcing the viewers to watch it happen, which is a major double edge sword. I read Subahibi because I have a fascination with disgusting art and what it can bring to the table but I would never recommend it to others.

Just figured I'd add that.

Chapter 3 spoilers + tw mentions of suicide, discussion of forced incest, rape, and EXPLICIT sexual content DO NOT LOOK IF YOU'RE UNDER 18 PLEASE GOD The cheerful music playing while Takuji is leading a woman to commit suicide is fucking crazy.

DUDE'S GOT A WHOLE ASS CULT ALREADY THE FUCK, it's really that easy huh

Megu and Satoko already ready to beat the shit out of people for Takuji, can't be shocked cuz they're 100% convinced that Zakuro was out to kill them and that he saved them.

I fucking love how this VN shows how deeply intertwined conspiracy theories and cults are, I think modern day exposes that fact more than any.

Riruru having the same theme as Ayana will forever fucking bother me, what is their connection? Was Ayana not bullshitting when she said she was Riruru? So Riruru is real?? Or??????

I'm honestly thinking that Riruru is something more akin to a tulpa.

Oh god Riruru is calling Tsukasa and Kagami demons (also Ayana which, is Ayana the "evil" Riruru??) I know where this is going.

THE SKY IS FULL OF ANXIOUS WORDS WAIT FUCK WHEN WAS THAT SAID BEFORE AND BY WHO??? ZAKURO??? FUCK I DON'T REMEMBER BUT I RECOGNIZE THAT

CALLING IT NOW the fake Takuji is Yuuki. That guy has literally not interacted with anyone other than Takuji.

Kimika doing a cutesy voice when announcing to Takuji that Senagawa died is so unsettling that it wraps around to being funny

My ass opening up a guide to which option to pick when they're all the same option.

OH GOD THEY ALSO DON'T KNOW WHO THE FUCK KAGAMI AND TSUKASA ARE WHAT ARE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

"your dead boyfriend was into drugs, right?" is fucking crazy



Yup, just, yup, had to stare at that line for a solid minute.

TAKUJI IS GOING "you don't need modern medicine you only need me" LEVELS OF CULT LEADER ON THIS BITCH

Ohh god i feel naucious, I'm gonna have to mentally prepare myself for this one

sometimes I get scared I've become fully desensitized to disgusting shit and then Subahibi exists to remind me that I am infact still human.

I would like to stop looking at Asumi's pussy now WHY IS THE MUSIC OF HER JACKING IT IN PUBLIC GOOD I DON'T LIKE THIS AFTER WHAT JUST HAPPENED

OMG HI ZAKURO'S TALKING CORPSE HII HIII HII save me

oh

oh the desk

hello

02/16/2025

Narcissu

The music is so gorgeous and melancholic, it fits so well, sitting on the floor of a hospital where you no longer get treated for what condition you have as the only choice you have now is to wait for your death.

God I need to shelf this one for the morning, I can't think about death at night.

02/15/2025

The NOexistenceN of you AND me

Picked up this VN since it was just 1.99 and got intrigued by both the reviews and the fact that it originates from China.

Oh the vibes are strange, absurdist, and dissociative, I fucking love it, also Lilith is gorgeous.

The way Lilith speaks on philisophical ideas with a playful tone rather than a sorrowful one is extremely refreshing.

02/13/2025

Narcissu

I've had this one in my steam library for awhile and I figured it's time to give it a read since I've been craing something less uh, manic, than what I typically read.

02/11/2025

Wonderful Everyday: Down The Rabbit-Hole

Chapter 3 spoilers + sexual discussion + gore description warning

THERE SHE IS!! THERE'S MY FAVORITE MENTALLY ILL AUTISTIC GIRL (yes I know it's just a weird localization)

I was so excited for this, I've been hella curious to why Kimika ends up siding with Takuji, though I kinda guess it's her own mental instability and need to be punished for betraying Zakuro.

Ohhh those dead eyes, poor girl, she's just as psychologically broken as Takuji.
Fuuuck this really do be a cult Takuji is forming, taking advantage of the damaged, though slightly different than other cults because he himself believes this shit.

"Does this girl have a screw loose?" - Takuji, the guy who fucked the desk of a dead girl



Oh! Joyous!

OH JOYOUS! THE TEETH GHOST!

Oh bro has lost it, assuming this isn't real I guess, can't tell anymore, it probably simultaniously is and isn't.

Oh that's gore! Oh that's actually fucking terrifying imagery! Hello Shiroyama's mangled corpse with a distorted jaw and no eyes!

Oh of course! The blood stairs with eyes!! The guro part of the eroguro is kicking in. (Does Subahibi count as eroguro? maybe it only does if the guro is involved in the eros)

OH OF COURSE! A FLOCK OF VERY AGGRESIVE RIRURU-CHANS is this like angels descending onto the earth during end times?

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON????????

02/10/2025

CHAOS;HEAD NOAH

Chapter 1 spoilers

Oh shit, maybe Takumi was onto something.

The repetitive way she speaks is honestly hella haunting.

Oh shit time fuckery mention, this really do be in the same universe as Steins;Gate

THE FUCK?? NO NO NO YOU CAN;T JUST END THE FIRST CHAPTER LIKE THAT YOU CAN'T JUST GO "Shogun is Takumi fron the future" WHAT THE FUCK

Chapter 2 spoilers Oh this is where the story really starts huh.

ngl, a doctor misdiagnosing literally being able to see into the future as PTSD kinda makes sense, vivid images of the terrifying. Flashforwards mistaken as flashbacks.

I can also very much see how someone with this kind of burden would become a recluse. Consider me invested.

FUCK I hate finding this asshole Takumi relatable, begging and pleading to live in their virtual world instead.

Ah yes, going to a psyche ward to prove to someone that there's nothing wrong with you and that you're perfectly sane, y'know, as normal people do. Always happy to see psyche wards in media that aren't just "ooo scary crazy person."

Serial Experiments Lain (PS1)

Look, I know this isn't a visual novel by traditional means, but I feel like it fits a lot more here than in my gaming log page

I've always wanted to properly finish this game but I always end up feeling the need to start over. But god I'm so obsessed with how weird this game is structured, I can only really describe it as a strange puzzle game where the puzzle is putting together what's going on with all the characters.

Touko's voice actress does such a good job at feeling so so sweet, so is Lain's voice actress here, she really does feel like a different person from anime!Lain.

SITE A spoilers Going between Touko in her diagnosis logs and her diary is so cool, her going from her fake clinical speach to be taken seriously to her true more bubbly and slightly bitter true self.

Lain's need to be like other people combined with her intense need to understand Touko is very interesting, I wonder if those are linked at all.

02/08/2025

CHAOS;HEAD NOAH

spoilers Lowkey, I know I've been talking about how much of a piece of shit Takumi he is, I also have the intense urge to call him my favorite problematic autism rep. Totally not because I too also assume every stranger who wants to get to know me better is secretly plotting against me bc I'm a gross nerd.

Also I think the specific genre of "tragic but completely disgusting male protagonist" might be one of my favorite types of characters, thanks visual novels.

God I hate the moments I relate to this guy, wanting to cut off any potential connection with real life people out of the intense expectation that they'll just automatically hate me the moment they actually figure out who I am and being inherently resistant to someone who's genuinely accepting.

I kinda suspect that Grimm is Daisuke, the way they speak feels very similar, I just think he genuinely has no clue that Takumi is KnightHart, or he's a great liar. That or Grimm is one of the girls, maybe the blue hair girl I haven't met yet, she seems important.

OH, THE MOMENT I MENTION HER SHE SHOWS UP HELLO

02/03/2025

CHAOS;HEAD NOAH

spoilers

My brother in christ you just told your little sister you don't care if she gets killed by an active serial killer.

"Fweheheh it felt great" Oh this guy is insufferable.



Oh she's cute as fuck.

OH MY GOD TAKUMI YOU ARE THE MOST PATHETIC MAN ALIVE OOO SCARY REAL WOMEN SCARYYYYY

Yua could totally fix this guy ngl. Or she's secretly just as bad as him and can make him worse, either works.

02/02/2025

CHAOS;HEAD NOAH

spoilers + TW IMAGE OF VIOLENT GORE Honestly I might adopt this dude's weird game to prevent him from checking his back bc of paranoia, sounds like an ok enough coping mechanism.

Jamais vu mention! I've experienced that before! It makes you feel like you're going crazy.

Oh joyous! ominous crosses my favorite!

OH GOD THERE IT IS, AND IT WAS THE PINK HAIR GIRL I KNEW IT oh no I'm gonna love her aren't I
There's a piano sample in the track that's in the background of this scene and it keeps fucking me up because it sounds so familiar, maybe Saya no Uta???

OHHH SHE'S CREEPYYYYY oh no I'm gonna love her.

Bro's more concerned about breaking one of his waifu figures than a mangled corpse, tbf he's also trying to convince himself that he hallucinated it.

Bro has a breakdown so hard he's starts hallucinating his anime waifu telling him that everything will be alright.

Oh his little sister is adorable. Ngl most of the characters here are, I adore this hyperkawaii art style.

01/23/2025

Wonderful Everyday: Down The Rabbit-Hole

Chapter 3 spoilers Oh here we go, this is where the storylines of the previous chapter and this one seem to start actually overlapping, Takuji monologuing to the class like he did before.

YUKI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

01/21/2025

Project Eden Garden

Just completed chapter 1 last night and ohh my god.

Chapter 1 spoilers The MOMENT it clicked it my head it was Eva I felt fucking terrifed, she was one of my guesses but I was pretty convinced it was Kai for most of it.

Eva really did expose herself as actually being the Ultimate Liar, in a sense. Her exposing for everyone how truly egotistical and manipulative she really was this entire time, her persecution complex growing so intense that she fucked over those who COULD'VE helped her, Diana and Damon.

Eva grew an intense ego to protect herself just for it to be what kills her, and her death proving Damon's toxic thought process right, god. AND DIANA TAKING WOLFGANG'S PLACE WAS NOT WHAT I WAS EXPECTING!!

Also, oh my god the fucking scene of the drugged of Wolfgang, it's very clear that what he was hallucinating was his mom then his dad, seeing his dad triggering violent aggression. My current theory is that either Wolfgang's dad is closely connected to the killing game OR the more insane one, Tozu IS Wolfgang's dad.

The supposed trial ruinner dying first and the supposed support being the first killer, this is the fucking anti-Danganronpa game.

01/17/2025

Wonderful Everyday: Down The Rabbit-Hole

Chapter 3 spoilers
So now we're back to the argument with Kagami, but I think the dialog might be different???? Kagami speaks so much differently to Takuji, she speaks almost in a similar way to Ayana. Implying that Kagami and Tsukasa aren't delusions of either of these characters but, maybe something else entirely.

OH HI AYANA FANCY SEEING YOU HERE!!

does, does Kagami know what Ayana is??

So Ayana does confirm that once the truth is revealed (most likely once The End Sky event happens) Kagami will cease to exist, implying she does indeed exist, but, maybe Kagami and Tsukasa are both concepts that aren't supposed to exist in the first place?

It's so unsettling that since they used one of Ayana's sprites instead of drawing her into the CG she's looking directly at the player, she definitely knows about the fourth wall, she probably just doesn't give a shit.

01/16/2025

Project Eden Garden

Chapter 1 spoilers
About halfway through the trial, the fake-out of Diana potentially being the killer felt pretty well done, I did feel like it seemed too obvious but also I almost believed it because of the simple fact that this is the first chapter, the first one is usually the easiest to put together, but they came to the conclusion wayyy too fast, especially when my friend said that the trail is "DRV3 long"

I am very confident that it's Kai and that makes me so so sad, I was starting to absolutely adore this guy, and the fact that he was starting to bond with Damon is just gonna prove his need to seperate himself from the rest of the cast. He's panicked constantly sure but he seemed, specifically insistent on Diana.

What I think happened is that for one reason or another that Wolfgang was dying for a prolonged amount of time, since so far Diana is implied that she did WITNESS Wolfgang dying but didn't see the killer.

CHAOS;HEAD NOAH

spoilers + light gore mention
Didn't read very far because I'm struggling to focus (maybe I shouldn't be watching a video while reading something lol) but I got to the first major horror moment from a mysterious individual who was originally just lurking the chatroom began to send ominous messages and sending links in mass of disturbing gore.

Sounds like a normal 2000s chat room to me.

Leaving an ominous message of "Who's eyes are those?" right after our protagonist has a brief paranoia episode that resulted in him yelling at his door "Stop looking at me!"

Wonderful Everyday: Down The Rabbit-Hole

Chapter 3 spoilers + NSFW content + TW discussion of rape, delusions, and violence
it's been long enough since I've read any of this that honest to god for the most part all I remembered was Takuji fucking Zakuro's desk, but it's kinda coming back to me.

We're having confirmation that Takuji is the one who sent ominous texts from Zakuro's phone it seems.

Watching the domino effect unfold as Zakuro's obsession with a conspiracy over the world ending spread over to Takuji's severely distorted mind is an extremely interesting one to witness and feels like an actually accurate portrayal of how obsurd conspiracies spread.

Takuji's never ending dialog of random kinda related shit feels so much more realistic to a very mentally ill mind than I've ever seen before, saying from experience (NOT CALLING TAKUJI ME FR, TAKUJI IS STILL PRETTY GROSS BUT HE'S A FASCINATING CHARACTER)

This piano track (Shu yo, Hito no Nozomi no Yorokobi yo) has been playing for so fucking long I feel like I'm starting to lose my mind

Oh shit Yuuki is here while Takuji has seemingly hit the point of no return with his delusions of grandeur, wonder how this is gonna play out.

HOLY SHIT THE MUSIC THAT PLAYS WHILE YUUKI IS ABOUT TO FUCK UP TAKUJI BANGS SO HARD WHAT THE FUCK??? THEY DID NOT NEED TO GO THIS HARD

Yuuki is another character I can't tell if he's a real person or not, considering he's gotten his shit beaten in and still taunts Takuji makes me think he might not be, the question is if he's a part of Takuji's mind or if he's simply not human. I'm leaning towards the former.

Looking at the cg of Yuuki covered in blood and Takuji standing over him makes my brain keep saying on repeat "this is like Fight Club but for mentally ill weebs"

OH SHIT YUKI HI I DON'T THINK YOU'RE ACTUALLY SPEAKING TO TAKUJI RIGHT NOW BECAUSE IT'S VERY DISTORTED BUT OMG HI HI HI HI

Oh shit I think this actually is the dialog from the previous chapter, fuck I can't tell what's real or not anymore jesus christ. Love that in Takuji's weird mind he equates an intimidating punk girl to the power level of a god.

God the implication that Takuji was intensely watching this exact interaction is kinda unnerving.

ARE THE TWINS REAL???? ARE THEY NOT??? ACCORDING TO TAKUJI THEY'RE JUST VAGUE SHADOWS BUT KNOWS EXACTLY WHO THEY ARE, WHAT THE FUCK ARE THEY??????????

Ok so if I remember correctly in the previous chapter Takuji seemed to correctly read Yuki's mind, but here it seems to be implying to have been a coincidence, maybe? Reality is fucked and I don't know what's happening anymore so I'm just along for the ride at this point.

OH JOY! SPEAKING OF REALITY IS FUCKED! HI AYANA!!!

OH SHIT SHE IS RIRURU I WAS FUCKING RIGHT then again I think Ayana might honestly just be everyone and no one simultaniously but they also have the same exact theme. Maybe Riruru is a form she uses to fuck with Takuji?? Or to try to get him to cause The End Sky in the first place??? But also Riruru claims to not be her??? So maybe they are the same person and not simultaniously???????



Yup normal, normal dialog, normal character.
Oh god are we gonna learn what really happened to Kagami and Tsukasa? I'm scared if so.

Takuji has fallen into the trauma birthing a fetish pipeline

THE FUCKING HAPPY MUSIC WHILE EVERYONE IS FREAKING OUT ABOUT GETTING AN EMAIL FROM A DEAD GIRL IS SO FUCKED THAT IT WRAPS BACK AROUND TO BEING FUNNY

01/11/2025

CHAOS;HEAD NOAH

spoilers + nsfw themes
Our protagonist refering to his anime figures as "his wives, daughters, and sisters" is so fucking funny, I love when VN protagonists are exactly like their audience, his anime figure shelf is the only part of his room he cleans oh my god I love(hate) this guy.

Actually, I'm almost exactly the same, 99% of my cleaning focus is my desk with all my figures, I shouldn't talk.

OH JOY A FICTIONAL ANIME THAT IS THE MAIN GUY'S FAVORITE I'M SURE THIS WON'T BE A MAJOR PLOT POINT LATER Subahibi has ruined me.

Oh my god the first options I get in this VN is deciding what kinda swimsuits he's into, I hope this pushes me towards different endings, I will say yes to thigh-highs though.

I love seeing "new-tips: no panties" pop up.

Oh my god he wants to appear as the ~silent mysterious type~ online, he's such a fucking loser

01/08/2025

Project Eden Garden

Been playing this game with a group of friends and it's been SO GOOD. It's genuinely everything I wish Danganronpa was. The cast is incredibly likeable and all intriguing, not a single one feels like a throwaway character doomed to die. And that makes the deaths all the more painful.

Chapter 1 spoilers
Wolfgang being the first death was NOT what I was expecting at ALL, my brain was so wired to Danganronpa rules of "the opposite to the protagonist always either lives or dies late" that I didn't even consider it. But it's honestly a genius first death, really sets the tone of this is NOT Danganronpa, anything could happen.

If Damon being a piece of shit didn't show that already.
Did you know? There's a growing amount of evidence that Depression shrinks parts of the brain, in particular, a lot of areas lose GMV (gray matter volume)

Always remember that mental illness affects the brain physically as well.